How I Overcame My Eating Disorder

How I Overcame My Eating Disorder

Hey Guys! I’m not sure if ya’ll know this or not but in my early 20s (college years) I struggled immensely with disordered eating. I recently came out with this little nugget of info on my Instagram, for five random facts, and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t incredibly nervous to hit post. Nonetheless I decided 2018 is the year of being bold and taking risks, so I just went for it.

I would assume this would not be a surprise to those from my hometown, as I was way thinner than my high school days when I was healthy and running track. Believe me, ordering Domino’s and having pizza eating contests with my friends was not beyond me.

Summer of 2010

Truthfully, an eating disorder is not something you just happen to stumble upon because its “cool” to be thin. I think all eating disorders (purging, starvation, binge eating and so on) stem from a deeper issue and struggle from within.

Mine was definitely a control mechanism, to have one constant when I felt lost and alone. Isn’t it funny how we give so much power and destruction to something that is meant for our good. I know this is still a issue at large with young girls and that is why I am choosing to share how I overcame my eating disorder.

Eating a liquid diet, 300 calories a day max.

  1. You Create Your Own Happiness

I remember the exact moment where and when I had my turning point, at this time I was a senior in college. I had so much to be thankful and happy for, I had great friends and was making deans list but was still facing an obsession with a number on the scale. Sounds so trivial but it can be an endless game of cat and mouse.

I was in my consumer behavior class when my Professor said to us, “You are the creator of your own happiness” and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I had never even thought about that perspective because I was focused on ALL the wrong things. I went home and wrote that on a piece of paper and decided things had to be different from that day on. It really is true that your words can affect peoples lives (it’s not just a cheesy One Tree Hill thing, cue Lucas Scott).

Summer of 2017

2. Self Love and Acceptance

I think as you get older you definitely learn how to self accept and learn to like your weird quirks, but to get there you need to do a lot of self learning. When you think about it, how you treat yourself is how you show others how you would like to be treated.

Hold yourself to the highest standards and know your self worth because you are ONE of a kind. No one will ever be replicated, you have unique gifts and talents NO ONE else has. Learn to really find what it is that sets your soul on fire and go after it, believing in yourself is half the battle.

Lastly, DO NOT put your self worth into the hands of other people or into a number on the scale. Learn to fully love yourself and fill up your own cup, it is then you will truly attract what you’re seeking.

3. Take It One Day at a Time

You only get one life to live, how do you want to spend it? Do not waste time giving energy to something that is making you truly unhappy, everyday is a gift and should be treated as such.

Make a list of everything you are grateful for, keep a gratitude box and write down on a piece of paper each time something great happens in your life.

There is so much more to live for than an eating disorder, trust me my loves. You only get one body and this body is capable of great things. Treat it with love and fuel it with the right food it needs to flourish and surround yourself with others who lift you.

Now, I would be lying if I said sometimes I don’t slip into my old habits. Holding myself accountable and brushing myself off the next day to start anew has always helped me get back on track. Remember to not be so hard on yourself.

Eating intuitively, without starvation.

Eating intuitively, without starvation.

I wrote this post in hopes it will truly help someone and shed some light on the stigma against eating disorders and their varying degrees. I am also incredibly grateful for companies like Healthy is the New Skinny and movements such as; “Strong not Skinny” that are prominent on social media. Remember to be please be kind to one another, your words are powerful use them for good.




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